(and then I went dancing).

Despite my best efforts to be on time I arrived at Rotherhithe half an hour early, and sat in the sun reading Downriver with some gross protein milkshake and meditating on the difference not only in racial demographics from area to area in London (Rotherhithe, from what little I saw, seemed to be predominantly white and ( Read more... )

So yesterday ( Read more... )

Events: a man sent me 5 pictures of his dick and a load of gibberish about my genitals at 7am so I didn't get to sleep when I was intending to, meaning that I didn't get up when I was intending to, meaning that I didn't get to the gym (this was also in part because I had WICKED DOMs up until about half an hour ago and can hardly fucking walk ( Read more... )

GymThis "rest day" bullshit Catholicism thing seems to have worked, along with "sleeping like a log"; today's run/row was okay, I did heavier weights for chest press & lats and investigated the leg press (less hassle than the other machines because my legs, having had to lug 18st of me around in the past, are fairly used to effort). Not QUITE ( Read more... )

No energy, and executive function best described as "mulish" (that's not the what). Dragged my arse around London stocking up on various Health Wank and Stupid Snacks and annotated another section's worth of notes, mostly by crawling from coffee shop to coffee shop like a wounded animal (coffee at the train station, tea, matcha, coffee, I have too ( Read more... )

I am narked at myself in about six different ways and also confused.

ConfusionI've become better at catching my brain when it's doing nutso things instead of letting it get away with shit behind the curtain and claim that it's being perfectly rational. Sometimes it tries to funnel my thoughts away from that, so it ends up being a case that I know ( Read more... )

once we were giants (MCU, Tony Stark, Civil War spoilers).

* Life continues ( Read more... )

Private Endo: Needs liver function and cholesterol blood test results before he'll validate my prescription for testosterone ( Read more... )

Amazingly if you tell your therapist you'd been considering quitting AND that you've been contemplating both suicide and self-harm and subject to some unpleasant intrusive mantras of late he will be quite concerned and take a fairly gentle approach instead of telling you off, which was what I'd expected ( Read more... )